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how come,,dad drunk again,just like a crazy guy,,dear dad,can you just calm down?

well, it makes me think a lot.........................................

just like what i hoped before,,,winter vacation was coming as usual

but, it is far away form my thinking...

grandma has been in hongkong,mom is busy, dad is much more busier than mom.

a lot of time,just i,,only one child,,stay at home oneself,,how i hope i can have a brother or sister.

have fun with me,talk to me,and ...................listen to me.

i went to kings when i have calsses,actually,i often spend my whole afternoon staying there even evening,at least i don't feel lonely.

but kings is not my home,not the place where i can stay for no reason,and no fear.

yeah,it seems a lot of friends in kings,but a few real friends, can talk ,but not deep.

no show in margrat's class,i don't feel good,she is a very kind and good teacher,i love her,

but because of some personal reason, i decided to no show, well ,i am a bad girl.

i think i should apologize to her,but i am afraid and don't know what to say..what can i do?

someone said that i always seem happy ,is that true?or i just crazy when i saw you.

i have put a lot of things in my heart,it is too heavy for me.

well,things will not just change for me,a characterless person,,,,the only thing i can do is facing all the truth,even it will hurt me,no choice!!!!

 

 

Iven,two more days,i am happy that i can share sometime with you,i hope you will not forget me, a stupid girl,and we are the members of the special group.when you back ,please call me!!(don't think about the texi driver anymore,he just the most stupid guy in this world.)

Tomorrow is the last day being at kings'.I think I should conclude my teacher time.

Jacky......Well,He is a 9 years old boy.At first,I thought he was a shy boy.Actually,I was wrong...He is a naughty guy full of energy to play lack of energy to study.He always spoke Chinese When we was having the VIP class.But,he is a smart boy.The first day i saw him,he couldn't count the numbers clearly.Now,he can say some big words already.I am proud of him.That sounds like what his father said,right?He is my first product,I hope he could lead a cosy life.

Fat boys....Absolutly monsters.I can't understand why the fat boys can be that fat when they speak so much.Enough to lose their fat I think.I hate them,but they are just kids, I can not do anything on them.But ,being with them lets me know that teaching is not a easy job,which calls for responsibility and patient.

Cute little ladies....They are quite funny.A little noisy,but it's within my endurance.I can say I am handsome confidentally because they can't understand...Maybe,in their little world. I've already set up the example for being handsome...

Grant...I am more handsome than you now...You might be more handsome than me when you were at my ages.Is is fair?I think it is fair...Anyway,we are both handsome.Haha...We spent a lot of time together handling the kids.That sounds amazing when it happened on a Chinese university student.But it really happens.Well, you and Jacky made my summer holiday cool...

Kings'...Thanks for giving me this chance to be a teacher there.Above all,I can get my first salary...I can't belive that when the supervisor ask whether I will come back to get my salary.....haha...Honestly,I don't care about money now,because I am a student.I just want to learn something,something about English and teaching stuff.Now,I've learned something I want,and I can get money.I feel excellent...

Fujian Normal University...

It can see me there next Sunday...You can see me smoking  outside of my poor domitory which is no AC......I have to face the tests again.However,I've gotten some reason to study.Because my English is  not as good as I expected.I wish there could be some pretty and hot girls among the freshman.Buddha,please give some surprise....

  Wish all my friends and my family have a awesome year,of cause including myself.Wish me pass the TEM4.With MR.HANDSOME realise his dream..haha

Do anyone know a voice that only heard by teenages who are under 18?

My classmate told me a song,(maybe we should say it is just a voice)i don't know the name,and she just forgot the web.I try to google it,but i found nothing.the voice is so strange,,,,when my classmate was playing the voice,her mom can hear nothing,but my classmate can hear very clearly....i am intersted in the voice,if anyone konw it ,please tell me,thank you so much.

Thank you!!

(said by a good friend )

I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.

Don‘t cry because it is over, smile because it happened.

who is that crazy person???

he gives me about ten calls everyday! also calls to my mother and my father!!

at first, i didn't know... but every time i pick up he will ask the same question:"are you blahblahblah...?"

i answered "no" and hang up

one hour later he will call again!!!!

it drives me mad！！

he even calls me at 3 or 4 o'clock in the morning!!!

and he sent txt messages to me every day, trying to figure out what i am doing!!!!

AH!!!

i went to the CHINA MOBILE company and try to do something... but the person there always let me wait and say they have no idea

if i want to forbid the man calling me or sending messages to me again, i have to do some other troublesome thing!!!AH!!! God kill me!!!

 

i went to the police station, but you know...dang

is "drinking tea and chatting everyday" one of the duty for the polices???!!!! Sh*t!!!

 

GOD!! i want to kill myself now!!!

If there are somebody can tell me how do I change my password···There is a really virtuous guy helped me change a really safe password these days..You are really warm-hearted..but i think maybe i am too stupid to remember it。Anyway。。thanks for you help..but i need another warm-hearted guy to tell me how can i change my password back....

As you know。。there always are some warm-hearted people wants to help old people across the zebra crossing，even if the old person already across it...

i am very happy to meet you and be your GOOD friend :)

we always get well along with each other, hehe...

you helped me a lot before ( especially to let me vent to you when dealing with the Ye Song Qing case :) )

so i would love to help you now ( in return hehe... just joke... i would love to help you anytime you want)

i will give you some advices on the boys case... but you didn't describe your situation specific enough :(

AND... i think i am innocent ( have nothing to do with the boys case)

it is you who are SO popular now, hehe... i don't think that is pertain to me :P

and from my experiences.... you should ignore them... because sometimes they are dangerous!!

 

PS: what you asked me before: all the answers are just oral ones

1) be so popular ( we usually use ) or blahblahblah ( in different situation)

2) love someone secretly ( though in Chinese it is just one word, hehe...)

the summer vacation has gone,kings bring happiness to me,only happiness.

but after summer holiday,just sad...

some of the friends,,,we also can meet,,but the summer time students had left ,,,the old teacher  had left...

they have their own reason,i cannot say anything

the friends of summer time class,,they back to their own city,or go to the university,,they said they will back next year..but it is a long time to see them next time...

i miss lauchallan,,the gentleman,,but i don't think i can meet him in the future,,,,,i remember his last smile before his leaving,,he was smiling and said byebye emily...but i don't know it was the last time,we said byebye to each other....

on Friday night, 10.00pm, on the way back home,,,i called princess,ask her if she would go to kings the second day..but she told me ,marco would leave.how come,,,all of the friends leave one by one,how sad we are......

suddenly,i feel i don't know what to say,,i know none can stay with each other together forever,but,my heart was full of sadness...can do nothing,,,

hope none will leave ,,,hope we can meet...hope...........

i don't like seeing the new teacher,they are very unfamiliar

i miss u,,,friends and teachers...

and there is no reason for me to stay in kings whole day~~

just feel sad,,,,,,,,,

 

  If i didnt study English for 1month,and I had an exam,i must get 60 points.If  i stayed up the night before the exam,i could get 70.If i study everyday, i can get 80,or even 90.When i realize those, i feel bored.when someone summerize the life experience,they can use it to be alive.Just alive,nothing else.Because they know what will happen next step.Nothing to expect.nothing can wake up the curiosity towards life.

  I am quite lazy,I wounld not work hard.I am a little vain,because i think i am smart.Probably, Actually, I am neither rich nor seasoned.I am a little lucky when something important happened.I can always get rid of troubles easily,I can get what i do want when I want it.The most sad thing is that I realize some roles in lifes,I know the shortest path to the place.

  What if what i realize now turn out to be wrong in the future?probably, it is the biggest tragedy in my life, which means i mean nothing.

first,,,to all of the teachers in kings

September 10th was teachers'day,but it was also school day ,so i can't say happy teachers' day to u in time...so sorry

hope Grant and Steve will like the card (it is just a small ,cheap card,but i really don't know what can be a good gift)hope hope hope....

 

i just realized that the water will be cut off in few minutes so good luck to my home and to the city.........

tomorrow i will say water water i miss u and i love u and i need u~~~~!!!!!!

i can't live without water,i believe so does everyone.....

 

then,,

about these week

everything is so so, and i found that i could finish my homework before 8:00pm.GOOD thing i think,,,,but i was stupid in my physical exam,,i   spent half an hour in one question,after half an hour i found that i make a mistake in the formula,how stupid i am,and i am BC,SJB,LZ 。。。。。。。overlook,i am going to kill myself

and at the end

 hope everyone can be happy every day!!!!

haha ,good morning,good afternoon,good evening,good night!!!

(lyric)

想，若结局一样，又何苦再想...

伤，若伴人成长，又何苦怕分手的伤...

解脱，是肯承认这是个错...

我不应该还不放手...

你有自由走...

我有自由好好过...

 

解脱，是肯擦干泪看以后...

找个新方向往前走...

世界多辽阔...

我总会实现一个梦...

 

translation:

if being puzzled in this situation will not change the ending of us, then... try not to think about it again...

if being hurt can help us to grow up and be mature, then...why are we afraid of being hurt...

release... is that we admit it is a kind of mistake...

i shouldn't have the "don't want to let you go"'s feeling now...

you have the freedom to go...

i have the freedom to better the rest of my life...

 

release...is that i am able to look forward and don't want to be puzzled in the situation... wipe away the tears...

aim at a new destination(which is meaningful) and try my best....

the world is so wide...

i can finally fulfill one dream...

i spent my whole summer vacation in kings,,,i find sth i have never seen,and learn sth new.....new friends,new teachers, new way to chat with people,new way to show myself,,most of things are new..........

after go to school,i can't go to kings every day,,,even can't chat with my friends in kings,,a little pity,,,,i want to say sth....

first,,,,,to my friends

1)TO DOW

maybe you won't see this,but i also want to use "you",,,,you are my classmate,and start with this summer vacation,you are one of my best friends.Steve said you are a crazy girl,,,i agree with him sometimes,,,,you are crazy...but sometimes,you are not crazy,,you like psychology but it is not psychology time for you,,maybe your mom will angry will this,,,or i am wrong,,,i learn how to know someone from you,you teach me what is outgoing,and how to make others and myself happy....thanks,,you are a good teacher,and good friends,,thanks this summer vacation,you change me a lot.....i hope we can go to kings together after go to school,,,but first good luck on you test,,,it is important to you....

2)TO IKIE (YOYO PINGPONG)..

haha,,you have a lot of name,,,,you are the second DOW to me,,,you are cute,very very cute,,,,,,you just like a 3-year-old kid,always make us happy,,,thanks.and you are also my friend,,stay with you,i also can learn a lot,you can see,every one like you,like staying with you ,and chatting with you,you can sing very well,but i really want to see your dancing,,,can i? maybe not,,,i don't like others to take photo of me,but you are an exception..friend,,hope to see you every weekend.....

3) TO ELEANOR

you are the first one,i said "i want to know you" to,,,,ehhhh,lol,,,and so cold,,,,,i am very admire you,,,because you can go to my dream place,(p.s. one of my dream place),,,maybe i will meet u there someday.....you will be busy after go to school.,,,but however,i hope to see u every weekend,,,,

a lot friends i want to tell sth,,,but the time doesn't allow me to do so,,,,summer...tiffany...prinsess,,iven,,hope to see u every weekend,,

jenny,angela,yolanda,wallen,ofeiliya,miss u so much,hope to see u next summer....

 

the day after tomorrow,the test is waiting for me.

to be honest,,,though i think everything is ok,but i am still afraid of the test.....

after all, for a long time,there is no exam.

i know i still have to face it,even i am afraid.

 

only one day,,,the last day for summer vacation.

then,i will be very busy with my homework,and countless exams.

i hate them,but i have to do them.

during my 16 years, in my memory,only homework and test,,,,,,

my god........................

 

i still remember that "life is like a box of chocolate,you never know what you gonna get"

but most of the things i got is what i needn't at present....

ehhhhh,,,,,though,i am afraid......the test also will come,maybe just try my best is enough...

come on~or~good luck.........

 When your loneliness becomes aloneness - that is freedom! That is when you can truly begin to love!

孤独：爱情的开始 学会在寂寞中绽放

   作者: 张昭瑞  来源: yeeyan   

 

When we are in the depths of our loneliness, what comforts us - what could possibly take us away from it? What, indeed? So often, it feels like there is no solace; like we are running from our own shadow. And it is true, in a way. There is no escape from being alone. We are always alone. But there is a way out of loneliness.   All our efforts at escaping loneliness are fundamentally flawed, for we don't understand the nature of what we are running from. There is something beautiful about your loneliness. And when you see that, when you acknowledge it, learn to delight in it, that's when something shifts inside you. When your loneliness becomes aloneness - that is freedom! That is when you can truly begin to Love! Fragmentation and the search for wholeness   As Osho once said - the first thing is to acknowledge aloneness. Aloneness is our true nature; we can never, ever, not be alone. We come into this world alone, we leave the world alone. And in between these two, we are alone - but we frantically hide from it, run from it, pretend it isn't true.   I remember analysing an attachment style test in a psychology class once. It aimed to discover how secure we are in our relationships. One of the questions was: "Do you ever feel like you want to completely merge with another?"   The room erupted into an awkward, hesitant burst of laughter at such a question. How absurd! - they seemed to be saying. But I remained silent. An old memory struck me, and I remembered feeling that same depth of loneliness, once, a long time ago. Or perhaps it never truly left me - an alienation so deep that the only way out truly seemed to be melting into another person.   Feeling cut-off in the middle of a lunchtime crowd, feeling alone when cuddling with a girlfriend; always on the outside looking in at life. I remember glancing around at my fellow students. The look on their faces - it seemed like many felt the same way.   This alienation is the universal dilemma of human existence - never at ease, never at home. It drives almost everything we do. Loneliness and separation is an intrinsic, permanent part of our ego.   In the teachings of non-duality, the core of many religions and philosophies, the message is simple - we are all part of the infinite, ever-present, eternal One Life. We are all deeply interconnected and inseparable.   The ego, then, is the universal illusion, the exaggerated feeling of "I", and the root of all our solitude. For the moment we feel we are "I", that is the moment we have created the "Not-I", the other, everything else. We become a fragment, cut off from the rest of existence. We become a dot in this world, forgotten by God.   This sense of fragmentation, for some - perhaps the ones who couldn't laugh in the lecture hall - is conscious. It shows up as a deep and constant sense of not being whole, of not being enough. For others, those who laughed at the test, this sense is unconscious. They lack something, but they don't know what it is. And so they seek, and strive, and struggle, yet all the time not knowing what it is they are trying to fill. More belongings, more sex, more status, more power, more recognition, more, more, more. Almost all their efforts stem from this drive for self-completion. But it is all futile - we are throwing our energies down a bottomless pit. That we are trying to fulfil is the very thing that is causing our lack. Romance - the new alcohol   Romance is perhaps the most common cover-up for the sense of fragmentation. If we are lonely, it must make sense that we need a special someone! Logical and cold, like a business transaction. A boyfriend, a girlfriend, a lover, someone, anyone! We have reduced them to a mere cover up for our sorrows - no different from the misuse of alcohol, the noise of our television, or killing time on the phone until we can next be with someone - as if we have so much time to kill!   Sex is the closest we can get to oneness on a physical level, and that is why it is so deeply satisfying. And when we peer deeper into our heart, fragmentation shows up as a need to attach, to cling, to melt and to merge. How many people are conscious of this lack? How common is this primordial sense of alienation? Common enough to show up on a standardised psychological test.   And so we look for someone to take away that feeling. When we are with someone, we can take our mind off that background sense of disharmony. Suddenly, our existence seems to have meaning. "I am not alone!" You exclaim, as you cuddle, hug, and kiss. "I have someone who needs me, who wants me! I am beautiful, I am wanted, I am worthy! I am no longer alone!"   And yet, a mere cover-up is all they will ever be. Even when we are with our loved ones, we are still just as we are - alone.   A few weeks ago, I was watching a documentary on the "host" sub-culture, in the nightclub districts of an affluent country. It revolved around handsome young men - dressed up gaudily, highly trained in seduction, paid to lounge around in special bars. They play host to multitudes of women - often young, pretty, and rich - who pay for their company, their caresses, and their idle flattery.   The film focused in particular on the finest host in town - a charming man who owned his own bar. He was living the dream. His prowess with women made other men pale in comparison. He stole women away from their husbands and boyfriends. Women fought over him, sometimes physically, sometimes by throwing money at him, and he goes home with a different one every night. It seemed he would be the last man on Earth to feel alienated. Near the end of the documentary, I remember the interviewer asking him if it was all worth it. He hangs his head and sighs. "It was all fun for the first few years. But after a while... I don't know. It doesn't matter anymore. I am the loneliest man in the world." The beauty of aloneness, and the sorrow of loneliness   If romance and sex, if money and fame and recognition offer no relief, what does one do? When you are in the throes of heartache and loneliness, what good are the teachings on oneness and inter-existence? Unless you can experience what they are pointing to - how do they comfort you?   Pretty words to fill your head, and then you close the book and turn to look at your bed, and find it as cold and lonely as it was before. If we can never not be alone, what then? All I can offer is a change of perspective.   Another quote from Osho, then: Aloneness is beautiful, it is grand. Loneliness is sorrowful, it is despair.   On the surface, they look the same. But in reality, they are worlds apart.   Aloneness is our nature. Loneliness is us running away from it.   You are alone. Why make it into a problem? Relax into your loneliness; into your sadness. Don't run from your aloneness, for it is always there. Celebrate being alone, delight in yourself, dance in your aloneness. If you can't, then you will forever be running away. Love yourself. It is the only way.   Simply sit down, and be lonely. Don't think about it. Just feel it. Relax into it, and then you'll find that your sadness has its own sacredness. Being alone is the perfect chance for you to go deeper into yourself. See all your subtleties, face yourself squarely, and gaze at all the parts you don't want to. Bring it all up into the light of your awareness, and accept them, love them.   We go off into the city, into the office, into the nightclubs, to run from our aloneness. The teachers, the gurus, the Zen masters - they go off into the mountains so they can get better acquainted with it. So what? Then what? Once you delight in yourself, then - and only then - can you truly delight in the other. It's a paradox, one of the biggest ones in the world. Only when you no longer need a lover; that is when you can find romance. Anything else is a sham, a pale imitation. To be needed and to be loved   A sham. That's what the entire game of romance is. Who is our "romance" really about? Us, and us alone. We say - I love you. But what we really mean is - Please love me. Manipulation is all it is.   Manipulation to fill our gaps, so we can feel loved, to feel needed. In fact, we have come to confuse the two words - being needed, to us, is the same as being in love!   A friend of mine was complaining to me about something very strange. Her husband had begun to discover the joys of aloneness. He had become meditative, more content and quietly joyful. He loved and laughed when he was with her, but he was also beginning to enjoy his solitary time. He was starting to see that there was nothing lacking, that he no longer needed her to feel complete.   And she began going insane. She became worried; her suspicions began overwhelming her. Why is he so content, so happy? What was he doing in his solitary walks in the park? Is there another woman? She followed him, but he did nothing wrong - he just walked. She spied on him when he was alone in the study, but he did nothing wrong there either - he was meditating, reading, praying. No forbidden love, no strange fetish.   "Why?" she wailed. "What is going on?" Why was she upset? That would be a better question. He no longer needed her, and to her it felt like he was falling out of love. But he wasn't - in fact, he was falling in love for the first time.   Neediness is so common that we think it's a sign of romantic love. But neediness is simply that - neediness. And this need will never be satisfied, for nobody - no matter how sweet, handsome, beautiful, gentle, extravagant, and attentive - can ever love your ego the way it wants to be loved.   At most, you will be satisfied for a period of time - the "honeymoon" phase, when you are "in love", when everything seems perfect and beautiful. Your existence seems to have meaning, for someone needs you and loves you.   Then one day your needs and insecurities - all symptoms of the basic, primordial sense of fragmentation - raise their heads again. Or maybe it just seems that way - they had always been there, we just forgot about them for a while. And that's when the arguments start, for we think it is the fault of the other person.   "You were supposed to make me happy!" you cry. And the sweetness, the smiles and the kisses begin to swing the other way. We become sad; we attack them for not making us happy; we manipulate them into giving us more. Maybe they give in, and the pendulum swings back into sweetness. Maybe they don't, and we break up in tears and anger. This even seems normal.   But it is not their fault. No one can take away our primordial sense of separation except us. But we don't know that, and so we go on complaining and pulling strings. We forget that the only way to be satisfied is to be satisfied in yourself.   Lonely people cannot Love; they can only pretend to, for they have nothing to give. They only give a plastic love, in the hope that someone will give real Love in return. Everything becomes a giant game; a chess match.   But when you no longer need to be needed, when you truly stop wanting to be wanted, that's when your loneliness changes into aloneness. And you begin to see Love. Dedicated to all those who are or have been lonely and alienated. The misunderstandings   This article is perhaps the most misunderstood article I have ever written; and so I'd like to clear up some common misunderstandings here:   1. Loneliness - it is separate from aloneness; two different things. Our physical nature is to be alone. We can never, not be alone. Even if we are having sex, we are still relatively physically separate. But that is not a problem, it only causes sorrow when we run away from it. When we run from our nature, we cause our own pangs of loneliness... but when we acknowledge and embrace our nature, we find the beauty of aloneness. 2. And from aloneness, that is the beginning of true Romance. I am not saying everybody fakes love - I'm saying lonely people do; for they cannot love if they need. Love is the opposite of need. Once you stop needing, that is when you can find love. There are many who do truly love; there are many who do not expect anything in return - but those are the souls who have found aloneness. 3. Once you have stopped being needy, which is what I have called aloneness, that is when you can truly go out into the world and find a proper romance and relationships. Otherwise, it is likely to be neediness, attachment - and not real love. That is all I am saying, I've stated that many times throughout the post - that real Love cannot come from loneliness. I am not saying we should all be alone forever, although there's definitely nothing wrong with that.

当我们深深陷入寂寞时，什么能够抚慰我们--什么能够让我们远离寂寞？到底是什么？常常我们觉得没有什么能够安慰我们，想要摆脱寂寞就像要摆脱影子一样不可能。在某种程度上确实如此，我们没办法逃离寂寞，我们总是出于寂寞之中。但实际上还是有一个办法的。   我们为摆脱寂寞所做的一切从根本上说是存在缺陷的，因为我们不理解我们正在逃离的东西的本质。其实寂寞也有她美丽的一面。当你看到并承认这一点，，学着以寂寞为乐时，你内心的某些东西便会开始慢慢发生变化。当寂寞变成孤独感，你就自由了，就可以开始真正的爱情了！ 破碎后找寻整体性   正如奥绍所说：第一件事就是要对孤独形成认知。孤独是我们的真正性质，我们永远无法不孤单。我们孤单的来到这个世界，也将孤单的离开这个世界。而在这两者之间，我们是孤单的--但是我们疯狂的想要隐藏它、逃离它、假装它并不真的存在。   我记得曾在心理课上对爱情依恋类型测试进行了一次分析，目的是了解对恋爱我们有多少把握（It aimed to discover how secure we are in our relationships）。其中一个问题是："你是否想过要和爱人完全结合？"对这个问题的反应是屋子里爆发出一阵尴尬、犹豫的笑声。他们似乎在说"多可笑！"不过，我保持沉默。过去的记忆击中了我，我想起在很久之前曾经感受过这样深深的寂寞。活着也许它从来不曾真正离开过我--an alienation so deep that the only way out truly seemed to be melting into another person. 个异化如此之深，唯一的出路似乎是真正融化到另一个人。   在午餐人群中感到格格不入，和女朋友在一起时感觉孤单，对生活总像是局外人。我记得我扫试了一下周围同学的脸，他们脸上的表情就好像他们的感受都一样。   这种疏离感是人活着都要面对的困难--无法放松，无法亲近。它几乎驱使着我们所做的一切。寂寞和隔阂是我们自我内在的、永远不能分离的的一部分。   在非对偶性--许多宗教和哲学的核心--教义中，关于这一点的解释很简单--我们都是无限、无时无刻不在、永恒的One Life中的一部分。我们紧密相连，不可分割。   那么，"自我"就是一种人们普遍存在的错觉，是对"我"和我们所有人孤独根源的夸大。当我们觉得我们是"我"时，也就创造了一个"无我"，一个异类，一切别的东西。我们成了一个片段，与其它存在剥离开来。我们成了这个世界上的一个点，被上帝遗忘掉。   这种的感觉，一些人--或许是那些在演讲大厅里没有笑的人--能够意识到。它是一种深深地、持续不断的不完整感和不满足感。   对其他人，那些在测试中笑出声的人来说，他们意识不到这种感觉。他们缺少某写东西，自己却不知道缺少的是什么。所以他们寻找、努力、奋斗，但却一直搞不清楚他们试图填补的是什么。他们拼命获得更多的财产、的性、地位、权利、赞誉......几乎所有的努力都源于自我完善的驱动。但所有的一切都是徒劳，我们把自己的精力扔进了一个无底洞。我们努力实现的正是造成我们匮乏的原因。 爱情和酒   爱情可能是最常见的掩盖感的办法。如果我们感到孤单，必然会觉得我们需要一个特殊的人！这一充满逻辑的冷漠想法，就像是商业交易。你只是想找个男朋友、女朋友、情人、某个人或者任何人都行！我们只是想要掩饰我们的悲伤--这和滥用酒精、开着电视只为了制造声音、煲电话粥直到身边出现一个人没什么区别--就像我们的时间多的不得了一样。   性是我们在生理上能够最接近一个人的办法，这就是为什么人们这么热衷于此。当我们关注我们的心灵时，感还会出现，还会需要我们去系紧、去粘结、去融化和合并。有多少人意识到了这种匮乏？这种原始的疏离感有多普遍？普遍到足以变为一个标准化的心理测试。   所以我们期待着能有人帮我们赶走这种感觉。当我们和某个人在一起时，我们能够让自己的思绪脱离这种不和谐的背景感觉。我们的存在似乎突然变得有意义了。当你们拥抱、亲吻时，你会惊叹"我不再是一个人了！有人需要我、想要我了！我漂亮，被需要，值得爱！我再也不孤单了！"   但是，他们也仅仅是掩盖而已，永远都是。即使和我们爱的那个人在一起，我们也还是我们自己，也还是孤单。   几周前，我在一个富裕国家的夜总会区看了一部关于"host"亚文化的纪录片。它围绕着一个英俊的年轻男子展开，这个男子穿着俗丽，具有高潮的诱惑手段，付费在一些特殊的酒吧附近闲逛。他们主动接近女性，通常是年轻、漂亮、富有的女性，这些女性会因他们的陪伴、爱抚和甜言蜜语而付费给他们。   电影着重突出了这座城市里最优秀的一个"host"，这是一个迷人的男子，拥有自己的酒吧。他生活在梦中。他与女性交往的能力让其他男人相比之下变得很苍白。他从丈夫和男朋友身边偷走他们的女人。女人们争夺他，有时候用身体，有时候用钱，每天陪他过夜的女人都不同。好像他是这世界上的最不可能有疏离感的男人。   我记得影片接近结尾的时候，有个记者问他这一切是否值得。他摇着头发出一声叹息，"最初几年里所有的一切都很有趣，但过了一段时间......我不知道那是什么感觉。这些都不要紧了。我是这世界上最孤单的人。" 孤独的美丽和寂寞的悲哀   如果爱情和性，如果金钱、名利和赞誉都没办法帮我们解脱，那么我们该怎么办？当你感到阵阵心痛和孤单，完整性和相互依存的教义对你有什么用？除非你能够体会它们提出的一切，否则它们怎么能安慰你？   那些漂亮话充满了你的头脑，但是当你合上书，转身去看你的床时，发现它还是像以前一样的冰冷、寂寞。如果我们能够永远都不在寂寞，那会发生什么？ All I can offer is a change of perspective.我所能提供的改变观点。   引用奥绍的另一句话：孤独是美丽的，崇高的。寂寞是悲伤的，绝望的。   表面看来他们都一样，但实际上它们有天壤之别。   孤独是我们的本性，而寂寞使我们想要逃离的。   你是孤单的。这有什么问题？在孤独和悲伤中放松自己。不要逃离孤独，因为人总是孤独的。为感到孤单庆祝，取悦自己，在孤单中舞蹈。如果你做不到，你就只能永远逃跑。爱你自己。这是唯一的解决办法。   只要坐下来，孤独地。不要去思考，只要去感受。放松自己进入它，然后你会发现你的悲伤自有它的神圣之处。孤独是审视自己的完美的机会。查看你所有的微妙之处，诚实地面对自己，注视所有你不愿意注视的地方。把所有这些都带到你的意识里，接受它们并爱上它们。   为了躲开孤单，我们去城市、去办公室、去夜总会。而教师、大师、禅师，他们去山上以便能够更好的熟悉它。一旦你取悦自己，那时候--也只有那时候--你才能真正的取悦别人。这是自相矛盾的，是这个世界上最重要的事中的一件。只有不再需要情人了，你才能够找到爱情。别的都是骗局，都是苍白的仿制品。   被需要和被爱   一个骗局。这就是爱情的全部。谁和我们的爱情真正相关？我们，只有我们自己。我们说我爱你，但我们真正的意思是爱我吧。一切都是手段（Manipulation is all it is）。   填补我们缺口的手段，所以我们感到被爱被需要。实际上，我们把这两个词闹混了，对我们来说被需要就和在恋爱一样！   一个朋友向我们抱怨说有些事很奇怪。她丈夫已经开始发现孤单的乐趣，他变得爱思考，更满足，更快乐。和她在一起时他很爱她，并且经常笑，但他也很享受自己独处的时间。他开始觉得自己不再缺少什么，不再需要她才觉得完整。   这让她很抓狂。她变得很担心，满脑子猜疑。他为什么如此满足，如此高兴？他在公园单独散步时都做些什么？是不是有了另一个女人？她跟踪他，但没发现任何不对头的事情，他只是在散步而已。他一个人在书房时，她会监视他，但也没发现任何不对头的事情，他只是打坐、阅读、祈祷。没有禁忌之爱，也没有奇怪的迷恋。   她哭着说："为什么会这样？到底发生了什么？"她在烦恼什么？这是个更好的问题。他不再需要她了，对她来说这就像他在放弃爱情。但他没有--实际上，他第一次爱上了她。   需求如此普遍以至于我们认为她是浪漫爱情的一个迹象。但是需求只是需求，就是这么简单。并且这种需求永远无法满足，因为没有人--不管这个人多甜美、英俊、美丽、温柔、奢华、周到--都不能想你的自我想要的那样爱你。   大多数情况下，某一段时间你会感到满足--当一切似乎都很完美、没事的时候，比如蜜月阶段，或者恋爱阶段。因为有人需要你、爱你，所以你的存在似乎也有了意义。   直到有一天，你的需求和不安全感--所有基本、原始的症状--会重新抬起头来。或许它只是看上去这样，而实际上它们一直存在着，只是我们把它们遗忘了一段时间。争论就此开始，因为我们都认为这是对方的错。   你哭着说："你应该让我高兴！"甜蜜、微笑、亲吻都开始摆向另一端。我们变得悲伤，我们指责他们没有让我们开心，我们试图操纵他们，让他们给我们更多。也许他们会屈服，然后钟摆会摆回原来的甜蜜。也许他们不屈服，我们就会不可抑制的流泪、发怒。这甚至似乎很正常。   但这不是他们的错。除了我们自己，没人能帮我们赶走原始意义上的分离。但我们不知道这一点，所以我们继续抱怨、继续收线。我们忘了唯一能满足我们的只有自己。   寂寞的人不会爱，他们只能假装，因为他们没有任何东西可以给与别人。他们只能给别人塑料爱情，并希望别人回报给他们真正的爱情。一切都变成了一个巨大的游戏，一次国际象棋比赛。   但是当你不再需要被别人需要时，当你真正停止想要被要时，你的寂寞就变成了孤单，你就可以看到爱了。 献给那些现在或曾经寂寞、疏离的人们。 误解   本文可能是我写过的最容易被误读的文章，所以我想在这里澄清一些普遍的误解： 1. 寂寞Loneliness -这和孤独不同，它们完全是两种东西。我们的物理本质就是孤立。但我们永远都不会是一个人。即使我们做爱，我们的身体仍然是相对独立的。但是这不是什么问题，我们只有在逃避它时才会觉得悲伤。当我们逃避自己的本性是，我们使自己感受到寂寞的痛苦......但是，我们承认并接受我们的本性是，我们会发现孤独的美丽。 2. 孤独是真正爱情的开始。我不是说每个人都在假装爱，我只是说寂寞的人会这样，因为他们需要爱而不能爱。爱是与需要相反的东西。一旦你听只需要，你就能够发现爱了。有很多人他们真的爱着别人，有很多人不求回报，但他们都是发现了孤独的人。 3. 一旦你停止渴求，也就是我所说的寂寞，你就可以真正的融入这个世界，寻找一份稳妥的爱情。否则，它可能是需求、依恋，而不是真正的爱。这就是我想说的，我已经在全文中多次指出，寂寞不能带来真正的爱情。我不是说我们应该永远独自一个人，尽管这样做肯定没什么错。

  I will be mad soon because of my GOD DAMN major - English. Everyday, i get up at 6:45 and go out for breakfast then do some morning reading until we have classes. The class is boring because i can not understand my teachers' english.When they speak in Chinese, I almost fall asleep. I do know it is my job to hit the books hard. I don't know who the hell put so many new words in the textbook. the speed for me to forget what I've recited is much faster than the speed for me to recite what I've forgotten.I wonder if the GOD can show some mercy to me.....I really don't understand why the other people can recite the words so rapidly and use them so smoothly......Am i sick? sucks....

(saw this sentence in a notebook before)

用一分钟...

摆脱痛苦的记忆...

再用一分钟...

仰望虚无的雨空...

 

translation:

use one minute...

to get rid of the harsh memory...get out of the shadow...

and use another one minute...

to look up into the sad and raining sky...

My dog learned how to open the ferric door by herself today。。。Oh my god```The world is crazy..She has to use her mouth and claws at the same time···How does she did it?

Anyway。。。。

My father must be worry about his flowers...And my mom...haha ~~it is so dangerous for her chicken··~~

 

 

Congratulations~! I find the way to delete the photo~I am a genius``~

But i just want to uplaod some photo~~ why i have to agree with the agreement so many times?``||that’s a interesting question..

 

the first to say,,,nihao become nice,,,i perfer this style.........................

life seems good,but nothing special

homework,class,test,,,,,,,,,,all the same,,,but how come i enjoy the life now

go to school on Saturday,just because the government is going to reinforce our school buildings in this summer vocation in case of the earthquake predicted by siguang Li.............it will be a long time in this vocation,sounds good, but i don't think the NO.1 high shcool will just let us go,,,anyway,,just one year left for the "sh** exam,,all my fate.......became a mess................

learn to grow up in things that happened in life,,good,bad,,enjoying,,suffering,,,next year,i will become an adult,,,18,my 18,welcoming,or affraid,,,from time to time,,i,unexpectedly, just don't care~~~~~

i wonder why the words"** has died" that once i saw in a film strunk into my heart,,,,,i just want to say the EMILY yesterday had gone,now,i am roxy.

name is nothing,but throw out something disappointing by means of changing name,,,seem a good way for me to go,,,,,,,treat myself,,,,i know i am strange, ,,,,,,a fresh life,just bring back to life........

 

last,,,,,

people,,,,,,,,i miss you,,,,,,,,,all of you,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

whether we are enjoying the same sky............

oh,it is 0:36..............

in the sequel

I finally realize

don't need to say

also don't need to express somthing

cos even if everytime i feel i almost sad to death

life still goes on

  my guys un junior told me how terrible the TEM4 is.study study study....some people prepare the shit for 2years and just got 70....and  i only have half year to perpare. the fact is as cold as the weather

 

I am not lonely .I just stay alone..one person in my world is enough..busy enough..

Actually I don't feel so sad..just impotent..

Its too tired to love a person sincerely

In the beginning,we already know that everything has an end..

I think i can understand..maybe the happy ending doesn't mean it can bring me a perfect guy..

Happiness is always full of defects

 

If you leave me, please don't comfort me because each sewing has to meet stinging pain. 　

I am fine..i should be much better if i didn't meet you at that day...

One is always on a strange road, watching strange scenery and listening to strange music. Then one day, you will find that the things you try hard to forget are already gone.

i know myself..

if a girl is not sexy, she needs emotion; if she is not emotional, she needs reason; if she is not reasonable, she has to know herself clearly. if not.. the only thing she has is misfortune.

I know。。

nothing happened...just love tell me a joke..

sounds funny ,isn't it?

  30 hours later,i will be on the way back home.Above the way,the sun shines brightly.Under the road, the earth beats as rapidly as my heart does.the movement of wheels can not be explained by the simple physical theory.It covers a lot more than distance.Time flies like arrows,we could not stop what have happened.But, we can expect what will happen.

Nearing mid-day and its time for yet another company meeting.

Walking down the street she smiles to the older woman standing at the street's edge. Its another hot day today, ending September and ending Summer.

 

As usual, she is sure, the meeting with her bosses will be outdoors again. The top boss is a little eccentric like that, he always insists that meetings are held out on the balcony under the sun umbrella.

She doesn't mind this so much, in a small way she finds it rather comfortable even when the sunlight is beaming overhead at 41 degrees celsius.

 

After each such meeting she takes to the streets meeting people, making plans, and getting odd jobs done, all for the company, and all a result of that day's meeting.

 

The nice part about the balcony meetings is that while she is out and about in the afternoon recalling things needing to be done, there is a sense of sunlit warmth attached to her thoughts. And it is because of this reason that she never complains at just how hot it is when the other bosses are starting to sweat.

 

She wonders if the eccentric one that holds the team together knows that this is so. Perhaps its just another one of his eccentricites, but perhaps he does have her  in mind when planning these meetings.

 

There they are, the usual three bosses; the old eccentric one sitting in his usual chair smoking, the younger more handsome one sitting opposite and a little to the right, and younger again the funny one who is close to her in years.

 

She pulls up a chair and positions herself in the space left between the eccentric one and the handsome one. She likes doing this as the three always resound with a warm "Hello", "Hows things?", "Whats new?", and other such greetings.

 

Today is not a special day, in fact it is no different than any other day. As usual there will be a few tasks that will need to be done following the meeting's discussions and she will need to write all of these down in her notebook.

 

As she writes the eccentric one always gets excited by the sound of her scribbling pen and takes her notebook for a moment just to add a few more notes for her to remember. Every day its the same and the familiarity of it is making her job easier to do with each new meeting.

 

Her phone rings....."Ooops, must be a call from the investor company, one moment."

 

Reaching into her bag and quietly slipping her phone to her ear, she breaks into her mother tongue, Chinese. Not because she has to but rather because its easier to do so. While she's answering the questions of the phone call the three revert to a state of nothing to do, dont talk this call is important, and have another cigarette to pass the time.

 

She is used to this, its always been the same and these three bosses are as reliable and as predictable as a good girl needs them to be. This too brings a small smile to her face as she talks on the phone.

 

Toward the end of this day's meeting she noticed a quiet disenchantment from the eccentric one's face. "He looks tired, but he always looks tired. Is he unwell? He looks no different than any other day. What is it about him? Something has changed."

 

The meeting came to its natural end as it usually does with the ecentric one reviewing what was discussed, nodding at all with an approving smile as he talked, and they all rose from their sauna.

 

As always the eccentric one turned to her and said his famous end of meeting words, "Anything comes up send me a message. Ok?"

With that she replied "Of course, as always." and smiled. The eccentric one walked away lighting yet one more cigarette.

 

But something was different today. Something never before seen in the face of the eccentric one. All knows he is under great stress and pressure pulling this team up into a new corporate venture. Its been an eight year business plan for him, and its nearing a happy fruition. But thats not the face he is showing today, today there is something more than that.

 

As she walks away from the meeting she cant help wondering what this new feeling is about. She hopes its not the fatal end of the business plan. She hopes that she hasn't done something wrong. She hopes, and hopes some more, but nevertheless she can't help feeling that something is wrong.

 

As my dreary eyes open,

I see a flower shining in yellow as though it had been left for me by an angel.

But as I raise my head from my pillow, I remember that there are no angels, and flowers dont just magically appear.

 

I pass through another typical day, turning this way, and looking that way, and wonder about it all, just to realise that there is nothing really to wonder at.

 

The evening approaches and the evil within me whispers...."Master it is time."

My familiar voice of knowledge and education replies to the whisper...."No, you should not come out it is not time yet."

 

As I am walking home, I look up to see the full moon.

It is a beautiful evening this evening, I smile.

But deep within me I know out there somewhere in the gloomy shadows of this city there is a soul that is calling for redemption, a soul lost in its search for the other side.

This thought torments me much and as I enter my house the whisper comes forward again...."It is time master."

 

I sit in my chair and think about the nothings called today. The great adventure of 12 hours called today's life has quietly passed me by and not a single moment of it was worth recalling, and then the whisper calls to me again...."It is time master, she is calling us."

 

The evil within me is right, and it always has been. In the past when I let my evil out of its dark corner we did indeed achieve many great things, but that was long ago and my evil has since been imprisoned so I can pretend to lead a normal life.

 

I didn't want to stop being my true self, I just wanted to understand what the lessor people see when they walk around in this world, but tonight I must be free, I must let myself live again if only for a moment.

 

I walk to my open living room windows and gaze out into the night. I see nothing of interest but the evil within me smiles for it.  As well as I, the evil within me hears the crying voice of a lost soul somewhere in this city. That soul that cries to be redeemed of its pathetic existance, and that soul that knows that there is something more to this shitty earth than what she sees.

The evil within me grows stronger and I feel helpless to hold it back now.

 

For many years I have kept myself from feeling this way, why should I hide from these pathetic creatures called humans? It does not benefit me in any way to do so. It only makes me sad that I have to.

 

With a single action I tear off my cumbersome clothing and am damned happy to have done so.

A stretch of my body here, and a twist of my back there, and I release my evil from its torture chamber and two very big black wings unfold behind me.

 

"I am free at last!" the whisper becomes a shout from within.

God....What a relief to feel normal again.

 

The voice of the lost soul that hovers over the moonlit streets appears louder than before. The moonlight shines more brightly now, and the shades of electrical lamps burning becomes fuzzy to my eyes.

 

Ahh to feel alive again. It has been awhile since I revealed my true self and many of my natural abilities have been near forgotten.

 

My hands, ahh yes my hands.

I look at my aging hands and remember the power they once held and I wonder if that power still exists.

Placing both my hands together I smile at the memory that follows and I slowly rub them waiting for that long forgotten sound.

 

(Spark, Crackle, Snap)

 

Yes I can still produce a charge, it hurts a little to do so, but its still there.

 

In my younger days before becoming a teenager learned that I was not like the other kids. One day when my parents asked me to get into the car when we had been out shopping. I had reached my hand out to touch the car's door handle and was attacked with a volt of electricity that reached into my hand and climbed its way up my arm.

 

I was thrown onto the pavement of the supermarket carpark with force, and my mother screaming, ran to my rescue.

 

Later my parents took me to a doctor to learn what had caused the nasty attack, and with a grim face and low hanging spectacles on a very fat nose the doctor nodded, then grunted, looked up and said "Your son carries 3 times more static body electricity than the average full grown person."

 

What could be done about it?

Well the simple answer was nothing.

But I was told by the old doctor to enjoy the "gift" as it would surely make me think faster, be more powerful, and a bunch of other cool abilities to come.

 

Later the other cool abilities did come and came to be known as my evil within.

 

My evil within......

That monster that makes me more than human.

That monster that makes me love typhoons.

And that monster that hears your soul cry in the midnight hours.

 

With a powerful leap I am outside my living room windows, my wings unfold to their fullest reach glistening shiny black against the night sky, and the fresh, cool breeze lifts me high into the night sky.

 

Oooh how wonderful it is to feel alive again, and oh how I did miss this.

Then that whisper answers my happy thoughts with "Why did you wait so long master?"

 

 

The end of summer holiday seems to be the end of happiness.Life in compus is boring and awful,study is just a little part of life,for me, a lazy person,it is very hard to study at any moment everyday.Today, i went to supermarket to but cigarette, a lot of choices....suddenly i saw baisha...well.....it remind me a lot.Grant...I remember you always buy this brand.well.It seems you are dead in my writting..haha...nothing but missing you...those creazy kids,those pretty girls....those cool guys.....well.... i am quite lonely here

(from: a game named "xianjian", said by "ling er")

既不回头...何必不忘...

既然无缘...何需誓言...

今日种种...似水无痕...

明夕何夕...君已陌路...

 

translation:

if you don't want to reconsider (coming back to me)... why not forget it...

if my fate is just can't have you (missing you in my life)...why do you need to swear...

all the thing happening now... will just be nothing( like writing on the water)...

someday in the future... you will be in the different way from mine (having a different life)

AH!!!

i can't stand that!!!!

he changed the phone number again!!!!

and called me from 2 a.m. to 4 a.m. LAST NIGHT!!!!

7 TIMES!!!!

DO YOU NEED TO SLEEP, HUH???!!!!CRAZY PERSON!!!!!

are you a patient escaped from the mental disease hospital??!!!!

why are you so interested in every thing about me???!!!! i look like your ex who dumped you, HUH?!!!!!

if i were in another country, i think the polices have already done something to him!!!!

DANG!!!

 

it is the 11TH TIMES that he changed his phone number!!!! in "only" 3 MONTHS ( almost 4 months)

GOD KILL ME!!!!

 

One word is enough to explain all of these......exhausted.....i arrived at fuzhou 2 days ago.we are imfored to move domitory to the next second room..we are unsatified with such a stupid arrangement.worse of all,the guy living in the room didnt show up.....wait wait wait.....he came to school today- -we started to clean the room...move our stuffs....now....my guys are having their dinner....leave me here to smoke alone- -at 7 we still have to clean the old room for new student......today is a tiring day....I have classes tomorrow!no more a teacher,but a student.....

before i was too stupid

can not figure out what is the most important to me for 2 months

 

but now!

i RESTART my life

RECHARGE my energy

prepare everything to be a new one

 

i will try my best to achieve my dream

although i know the way to the destination will be So tough and So hard

i will not give up

i know...

my mummy would love to see a successful daughter!!!!

and that is what all MY life is about

where there is a will, there is a way!!!

no matter how hard it will be, i will always be perseverant!!!

 

our future is decided by ourselves!!

COME ON!!!

never say too late! FROM NOW ON!!

  It can't be a good day.My sister comes back to have a 5 days holiday from HK.But the f u c k ing airpot took a serious examnation on passegers' tempareture.37.5C.....Hospital......My sisiter should be back at 6p.m yesterday.Actually,she arrives at 6.pm..today...The healthy department is as slow as a tortoise.Does it need to take 1 day to examine a temperature only 0.5C above the ordinary one?If the mayor went jogging, his terpareture might be 37.5C.Dare anybody say the mayor caught the H1N1?How ridiculous!Thoes idiots ruin my last day's schdual.I can not go out for drinking with my guys.....GOD DAMN THE HEALTHY  DEPARTMENT

If I were asked about NiHao my answer would be very simple...

NiHao is the happy world that I created.

But today I sit and think about my work and all that it is and I ask myself.....will it ever be the dream that it could be?

Building a project as big as NiHao was never an easy task.

Sometimes it was said that what I was building is impossible to achieve.

In fact, I remember years ago having a bet with an Australian computer teacher that it wasn't impossible.

When I told him about my project he laughed and said the words that I will never forget....

"Grant, it would take a company like Microsoft with a team of 3000 developers at least 3 years to build that project."

I returned with a laugh and replied..."maybe....but I think it can be done. So I will try."

And try I did......From the first day until today, nearly 8 years have passed and today as I am writing this I can say I won that bet because I have completed the task. It took longer than 3 years but i am not 3000 people.

1 man soon became some men. Then later some men became a few people. Later a few people became a team.

And today......Well that 1 man (me) has become the NiHao Studios company with representatives from every portion of the globe.

Although the project is finished, and although its there for the world to see....Truly the dream hasn't even started yet.

In 8 years I have built the base, the platform of this huge dream, but it is far from finished, in fact it is only just the beginning.

Today my dream lies in the hands of the people. It was designed for them and it is they that will make the dream come true.

Years from now all of the world will be looking back at this day, and back at these words and saying..."Wow! That was the guy that made the world of today come true."

So although it is all finished, it is all yet to begin.

Very tired, and getting older, I still smile when I think back at that bet I had made.

Yeah....What an impossible dream, but sometimes dreams come true :)

 

 

   What a ####ing night it is....i m not the person who like to concern about the future.Who knows what will happen in the future?Actually,i don't know what the ####ing society real is.Some people told me the society is wonderful,some people told me the society is cruel.So,i got different kinds of advise.These advise decided my life:They dicided my major,decided my college,decided my schedule.

   Yes,this advise did work sometimes.But i was not happy sometimes.I am helpless now.I really have no idea about where to go.Atcually,my dream is easy-i just wanna live in a cosy way.I don't want to make too much money, enough money is OK.But i don't know what is enough.So i had to take some people's advise.They could be my friends,teachers,parents.

  Shit, who made the world so complicated?

Admin Note: Please be careful when writing blogs and using mature words. NiHao People must be China and children safe :)

  it gonna be a stupid blog,i think.I've never written anything in English in my blog.I type each word slowly,but i always make mistake.Damn it.But,i think it might be better in the future,because i can get used to it.Actually,i m not just handsome,i m smart,2.So,it gonna be OK soon...But,what does soon mean?Maybe ,the answer is.....forever.....

There are many stores which sell strut assemble and shock absorber and so on.  Some drivers also will buy complete strut assembly from theirs. If you asked why so many stores sell car pats, you will need to know the car developing.

After nearly 30 years of efforts, especially in countries over the past 10 years, automobile production and consumption of policy adjustments, China's auto industry show explosive growth, production and sales scale in the 10 years between 1998-2008 to maintain more than 20% of the average annual growth rate. At present, China ranks the world's second largest auto consumer who is willing buy complete strut assembly and third largest car producer. In 2008, the international financial crisis, China's automobile production and sales were 9.345 million and 9.381 million, an increase of less than 2007. And since 2009, the automotive market to pick up for strut, from a March 2009 car sales in China have been continuous since 9 months more than 1 million level, a record. From January to November 2009, China's automobile production and sales were 12,265,800 and 12,230,400, an increase of 41.59% and 42.39%. Overall development of China's auto industry is getting better. So like shocks and struts also sells better.

As a developing country, China will face more serious challenges than the developed countries, Chinese government highly concerned about the development of new energy vehicles and industrialization. In energy and environmental pressures, new energy vehicles will no doubt become future automotive development direction.

Broad prospects for China's automobile industry, China's vehicle production is expected to continue to grow in 2010,2011, expected growth rate of 19% to 20%. In 2015, about the domestic auto sales expected to surpass the U.S. include quick strut as the largest automobile consumer market. By 2020, China's domestic auto production will reach 20 million, of which the two products will enter into the international market.

B2C | B2B2C

it keeps raining for almost my whole semester.the  summer is coming!!~~~~ I can't br more excited~!~!~

After watching him cover the youth beat for the 2008 election, few would have initially expected Luke Russert, son of the great late Tim Russert, to end up broadcasting on Election Day from the Indiana Memorial Union.

It was certainly a welcome respite given that, for far too long, most of the media attention received by the University was focused on the NCAA violations of Kelvin Sampson.

Coming here certainly seemed like a good call for Russert. The presidential race in Indiana was decided by some 26,000 votes - a number smaller than the enrollment at IU. Given the drastic turnout on this campus, we might very well have been a deciding factor in which way Indiana's 11 electoral votes swung.

This year has certainly been an exciting year for IU students to make and witness history. We were visited by everyone from Feist to Bill Clinton. John Edwards broke his media silence in the IU Auditorium. The president-elect himself, Barack Obama, dropped in on the Little 500 women's race and greeted patrons of Nick's English Hut.

Not everything that happened this year was particularly good. The IU Student Association had an election that ended in the disqualification of the party that was initially declared the winner. During the summer much of this campus was consumed by flood water. The recent economic recessions darkened the dreams of many Kelley students and made the victory lap that much more tempting.

Did we mention sports? No, we probably don't need to go there.

This year we got to take part in the only Indiana presidential primary that might ever mean anything, we hosted a gubernatorial debate and got to help choose the next leader of the free world. Could next year possibly be as exciting?

Probably not, but we will have to wait and see. Who would have thought 2008 would feature Barack Obama and Hillary Clinton sparring in Bloomington or that Indiana would go for a Democratic candidate for the first time in 40 years?

Maybe 2009 will be the year University officials finally come up with a decent name for the Ora. L Wildermuth Intramural Center (hint: the new name should not include the word "Wildermuth").

Maybe it will be the year we actually get a decent fall break.

Or maybe, just maybe, it will be the year Ugg boots and spandex finally go out of fashion.

Hottenstein's clothed body, appearing wet from being in the water, was found by a passerby on Sunday morning, Feb.15, at approximately 7:35 a.m. at the street end on 42nd Place at the Sea Isle City Marina. A thorough and comprehensive investigation began into the circumstances of   Hottenstein's death by members of the Cape May Prosecutor's Office and the Sea Isle City Police Department. Additional resources were requested from the Cape May County Sheriff's Department Canine Unit to conduct a search of the area, as well as the New Jersey State Police TEAMS Unit and Middle Township Police Department to complete a search of the water for articles of clothing worn by   Hottenstein.

The investigation to date includes dozens of interviews, sworn statements; review of numerous hours of video recordings from multiple sources, and the review of information obtained from court authorized warrants. The investigation determined  Hottenstein was last seen exiting the Ocean Drive Bar and Restaurant located at 3915 Landis Avenue, Sea Isle City at approximately 2:15 a.m. on Feb. 15  and appears to have walked southbound on Landis Avenue. Hottenstein was wearing a black long sleeved top, dark blue jeans, tan Ugg boots, a pink plaid hat, and pink scarf. The hat and one of the boots was subsequently recovered from the water in the area of the marina. Still missing are Hottenstein's scarf and one of the boots. Hottenstein's cell phone, purse and vest were left in the Ocean Drive Bar and Restaurant and retrieved by detectives.

After consideration and review of all of the available facts, the cause of death was determined to be "Hypothermia due to exposure complicating acute alcohol intoxication" with the manner ruled as accidental. The weather where   Hottenstein was found on Sunday morning during the period from 2:15am to 7:35 a.m. reached a low air temperature of 31°F, wind speed up to 10 mph with gusts up to 12 mph from the NNE, wind chill calculated at 21°F, and the water temperature reached a low of 35°F, according to the records obtained from the National Oceanic and Atmospheric Administration.

The investigation is continuing to gain answers to questions that remain as to the circumstances surrounding how  Hottenstein arrived in the area of the marina.

All known witnesses of the events leading to  Hottenstein's discovery on the morning of Feb. 15, have been interviewed. The last interview occurred during the week of May 4. The Prosecutor's Office and Sea Isle city Police Department continue to request the public's assistance to determine her whereabouts after leaving the Ocean Drive Bar and Restaurant. Prosecutor Taylor and Sea Isle City Police Chief Thomas D'Intino encourage anyone who saw  Hottenstein after 2:15 a.m. on  Feb.15,  to contact the Cape May County Prosecutor's Office Major Crimes Unit at 609-465-1135 or the Sea Isle City Police Department at 609-263-4311.

  Exams = =! they are annoying forever.luckily,i will be back to xiamen at 20th. i have not been home for such a long long time.quite miss my family and my friends.Just wish me good luck in the GOD DAMN EXAMS......My english is good except my reading, listening,grammer,writting.YEAH.That is ture........

Nothing is permanent in this wicked world, not even our troubles.--Charles Chaplin

If time passes,everything

turns into beauty

If the rains stop,tears clean

the scars of memory away

Everything starts wearing freshcolors

Every sound begins playing

a heartful melody

Jealousy embelishes a page of theepic

Desire is embraced in a dream

But my mind is still in chaosand...

Following is the last parts about ugg genuine:

The 11th move: Looked that the entire pair shoe matches the pair, is the length consistent, the left right foot matches colors whether consistent, is really will not have the chromatic aberration, because the real shoe will have process Finish, will not have the very big chromatic aberration.

The 12th move: Looks at the big bottom, the real UGG boots rubber big bottom will not fall the color, will take has the color big bottom scratching which will back and forth make an effort on the color white paper, also will not fall the color, will scratch on the good floor will not have the trace, if will be the real rubber big bottom, with the nail with the forcing big bottom, will return to original state is immediately really, what is pressed does not come back will be false. If becomes spongy the Eva big bottom, looked that polish edge to be whether even and the base trace to be whether clear, what is not clear is false!

The 13th move: The shoe kept in stock has been long, the white instep have did the shoe to yours hand changes yellow, does the UGG boots rubber big bottom was the black have spits the frost (to turn white, and was more scratches a whiter that kind), if had is false or imitates.

The 14th move: Shoe pad length thickness is whether appropriate, looks at the shoes cloth sign, is also the code number sign, to four GB code fiducial mark surveys, is usefully above has four national code number signs, moreover the sign American code number must be bigger than the athletic shoes, for instance the women's shoes 37 yards, are equal to the European code 38 yards, if is not this kind of big code number contrast, that is false.

 The 15th move: Puts in the shoe the hand, felt that will have a group to hit foot's thing, will have is false, may also try on, felt that the comfort level, generally the vacation or will imitate, because the uggs shoe last will not be standard, or will all half yard by the entire code shoe last generation, how not fit well, so long as will have one clamps the foot is false.

 The 16th move: Has the vehicle big agent cotton thread is each Inch 2.5 needles, the cotton thread is thick; Has Mod or the Eva bottom, the genuine article bottom is smooth, has not soaked slightly, is one slightly soaks together, not smooth that kind, because the hyperpyrexia creates becoming spongy, on the genuine article production line, the temperature is the strict control.

 The 17th move: Shoe's rubberized wire very even 1mm is generally normal, the real UGG boots will not open the rubber.

 

all of a moment, i feel i am more like the needle, hurting someone and also myself 

this is the loneliness as like the tip of the needle

sometimes ,i just hate your  tenderness

 

maybe because of i am capricious, that makes you feel insecured..so you left..

i have no psychological shadow, so you do not need to worry about

i am not weak and vulnerable 

and moreover, that is not even a pain for me.

love is always like that

 

i am not lying 。why do i need to lie? you know that i never pretend anything  to you

i am not lying . please do not assume that you are so unforgettable for me 

i am not pushing myself to disappear from your sight

i have not visited this restaurant since long time ago.Don't expect it to change its interior design
i have some impression after you mention that frangance of rose can be smelt from the window in the corner  

i am not lying 。why do i need to lie? 

you know that one of my weakness is having a memory like a sieve

i am not lying . i am grateful to your company today, but unexpectedly i am not used to that. 

i am not lying.why do i need to lie? 

does it matter if i love someone who is not into me?

i am not lying. it is love who is lying. she brings you to me and lies to me that there is great possibility and

 hope to seize what i yearn for

i am not lying.wish you can be  happy . please pleas forget everything..

 

 

talking about me,while i am walking on a remote street, suddenly i realize that i start to miss that kind of pain

A casual dress shoes to attend a gala dinner at a 5 stars hotel ballroom. In short, your fashion dress shoes are ugg boots should be dressy depending upon what you wear with them and the occasion you are going to attend durability men.

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人最大的烦恼,就是记性太好.如果什么都可以忘掉, 以后的每一天将会是一个新的开始.
man's bigges problem is that he remembers.How wonderful it'd be to forget the past.Everyday would be a new beginning.


你知道喝酒和喝水的分别吗?酒,越喝越暖,水,越喝越寒.
Do you know the different between drinking wine and water?
The more wine you drink,the warmer you'll get.water'll only make you feel cold.


有些人是离开之后才会发现离开了的人才是自己的最爱.
Sometimes you won't realize how deeply you're in with someone untill you're separated from her


你越想知道自己是不是忘记的反而记得越清楚.
The harder you try to forget something ,the more it'll still stick in your memory.


当你不能够再拥有的时候,唯一可以做的就是令自己不要忘记
If you have to lose something,the best way to keep it is to keep it in

your memory.

I wonder about wisdom.

What is wisdom really worth?

As a young man my grandmother would always say, "it is good for a man to understand wisdom."

So ok, on a path to wisdom I will travel, and for most of my adult years I searched for it.

 

Wisdom is an interesting thing.

Each new acquired wisdom leads quietly into another.

You achieve a small enlightenment and know there is a greater enlightenment still to come.

 

Onward and upward the path to enlightenment continues.

Yet on the way I looked around and found there is not so much fun to be had in becoming wise.

The people around me lost in their misunderstandings appear to be having more fun than me.

 

Then onto wealth......

What is wealth really worth?

 

A man builds his empire over many years of hard labour.

Now he has a staff of thousands that are dependant upon the success of his empire.

If he fails today, the lives of his staff will be ruined.

What a big burden.

 

I think today that it is better to not know wisdom and acquire wealth.

For there is more happiness in not understanding the world around you.

Not understanding means adventures to be had, happiness to be found, and a world of new things awaiting to be found.

 

To not be wealthy is in itself a perfect happiness.

When you have nothing to lose you can find great happiness in small gains.

Whan you have too much to lose you have too many people to feel responsible for.

 

What was my grandmother trying to tell me?

I find no happiness in wisdom, nor do I find much happiness in wealth.

What was the point of it all?

 

To understand all means to enjoy nothing.

Maybe that was her lesson.

OK people. I told you last year that UGGs were awful and ugly and not to be worn with shorts and/or skirts. But did you listen? NO. For some reason, people are still wearing Ugg boots and strutting around like they're wearing Christian Louboutins. May I remind you that you aren't and you probably bought your Uggs not because they are comfy and easy to wear, but because everyone and their sorority sister has them. Let's try to be a little unique people.

  Some of my classmates in Fuzhou Univercity told me that their teacher didn't allow students from xiamen to go home this national holiday..If my teacher told me like this...it means that i can never go home until the winter holiday?it seems that my friends are as unlucky as me.One broke up with his girlfriend...One got a badly injured on his back.....Our new teacher is an idiot who fired all of us from the student union.......i wonder if the whole world got H1N1 together?

I find that the issue is not with a lack of interest in video games, but the dominance of the MMO genre. World of Warcraft, Lord of the Rings Online, Everquest 2, Age of Conan, Warhammer Online, and countless other free and premium MMO's have millions of subscribers that play daily. The gamers are required to pay monthly subscription fees, for example WoW CD Key、WoW Game Card, and many people feel that if they're playing monthly for a game, it deserves all of their attention, and will not buy other games. 
Some of the top video games of the last few years have been expansion packs to MMO games, with World of Warcraft's Wrath of the Lich King being one of the most prominent, as the same time World of Warcraft CD Key are traded more than last year. Both Everquest and Everquest 2 are still releasing expansion packs, with the upcoming Underfoot expansion for the classic Everquest. These additional purchases make playing the MMO feel like even more of a responsibility, and many gamers are not content until they have experienced every part of a released expansion.

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Oh dear, oh dear, oh dear.

Next week (22nd June 09) I am to be travelling to Hong Kong.

This previous week I have been researching great night spots, tourist attractions, and hotels and have nearly completed my luxury holiday intinerary.

Then I watched the television news tonight, oh dear.

The H1N1 pandemic has broken out quite severely in Hong Kong.

Of course I was aware of this flu earlier, but until now the flu had really only impacted upon Australia and Mexico.

Until now...that is, when I am about to embark on my luxury holiday.

So its too late now to cancel the trip, can only continue on and pray for the best.

Tommorrow I'll be going out to get medically approved breathing masks for the journey as well as disinfectant soaps to take with me.

I had just read on the internet (here: http://www.globalresearch.ca/index.php?context=va&aid=13431) that a good dosing of vitamin D may help some.

So as well as my already growing holiday shopping list there will be a stop at the local health store to get myself overdosed on vitamin D :)

Well Cap'n this may be my last post.

I loved you all, and in my heart you'll always be.

And dont forgot to take care of my cat if I do not return.

Goodbye one and all, I loved you all.

Hahaha only kidding see you next week. (I hope)

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